Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Hiding My Heart (Worlds Apart)

I went missing.
Did anyone notice?
I missed you.
Where did July go? 
It vanished with me, or maybe I became invisible in it.
Either way, I am back.
I have soooo much inspiration & stuff to share & talk about. 
I feel tired and uninspired at times.
And I wrote this last night...

I want to catch a break but I'm only breaking down. Breaking apart. Broken. Falling, falling, forever. Falling to pieces. Fading. Invisible. Disappearing. Gone. And no one notices or cares. It's an effortless mess, my SOS, calling out to deaf ears in distress. The girl (me, I) is hopeless. She's open for suggestions and directions. She can barely breathe. Countless questions.  Is she wonderful? Do you wonder about her? Or is it any wonder [her fate]? Full of wonder. Wondering. Waiting. Is it mere coincidence the fact that fate rhymes with wait, or is it something deeper? I'm getting weaker. And you, you, you. You. It ends with you, or more accurately begins with you. Always you. Only you. Perfect you. The one. Will you come slowly or run? She can be found if only you look. Find me. Save me. Embrace me. Press me to you. Hold me. Tighter. Never letting go, or you'd fall too. Strength in two becoming one. Learn me. Feel me. Catch me. Memorize me. Love me. I am yours forever. Irrevocably. Unconditionally. Enduring. Wishing. Hoping. Dreaming. Living. Flying. Breathing. Like stars crashing into each other at the speed of our hearts in a cold, dark light-years-length, infinite galaxy, transforming into one radiant, bright, shining star bursting, glowing, filling the sky, and each other, with warmth, light, and electricity. We are a star. You are my star. Guide me home.

Yeah it's kind of rough and inconsistent and a mess, but it was from the heart. That's what matters right?

Okay August had better be amazing for all of us lovelies. Lets make it so... no matter what. 
 "Entwined. All that we are is defined by each others shipwrecked hearts and I shiver to think what would have been if I wouldn't have seen you in time... would we we pass by? Like parachutes and air balloons or satellites and lonely moons. We'd still be drifting far apart but thank the stars we are entwined. All that you are is mine. Your divine imperfections color the dark, and I shiver to see how fragile you are when the world's such a cruel place to be. Then you cut me free. Lets walk the tightrope together without a safety net and when we fall, and we will fall, lets fall forever... entwined."
-Jason Reeves

 "Life is the most fragile, unstable, unpredictable thing there is."
-Meredith Grey

 "All anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone."
-Meredith Grey

 "The only time I don't feel like a ghost is when you look at me. You see me."
-Owen Hunt

 "Don't forget--no one else sees the world the way you do, so no one else can tell the stories that you have to tell."
-Charles de Lint

 "Some people say home is where you come from. But I think it's a place you need to find, like it's scattered and you pick pieces of it up along the way."
-Katie Kacvinsky

 "That's what love is. It's some power greater than you and me that draws us to one special person."
-Jodi PiCoult

 "You have to take chances in life to get anywhere worthwhile."

 "Our paths keep crossing
but never quite touch
You're so close I can almost feel you
Yet impossibly out of reach
When will our parallel paths
become only one?"

 "You don't love someone because they're perfect. You love them in spite of the fact that they're not. Because they are perfect in your eyes."

 "Every now and then something amazing happens and best case scenarios seem possible. And against our better judgment, we start to have hope."
-Meredith Grey

"Sometimes the only way to catch your breath is to lose it completely."
-Tyler Knott Gregson

 Brie & CiCi on the 4th of July!
"You only make a once in a lifetime friend... once in a lifetime!"
-The Little Rascals

Have an amazing day lovelies... always remember that someone is (or will be) lucky to have you.
With love,
Charley Brooke