Tuesday, April 22, 2014

The Only Exception

So I will never be as amazingly talented as Hayley Williams, but I sing like Charley Brooke. I will get better with practice.
I want to try new things and singing is one of them.
So here it is.
It's pretty terrible.
At least I'm fearless enough to share it with the world :)
I'll get better at singing as I practice and get lessons.

Monday, April 21, 2014

We'll Be A Dream

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they built you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you. You find a strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soulmate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting, and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life. Your forever."

To The Stars (TITANIC)

I never got to see it originally in 1997, but I was able to experience it's anniversary in 2012 and watch it in 3D.
Okay I am a little, who am I kidding A LOT, obsessed with this movie.
I feel like it has relevance in my life at this current time.
I admit to you that lately, I watch it EVERY single night as I fall asleep. I swear I have it memorized but it still mesmerizes me entirely. It pulls at my heart and never lets go.
I own hundreds of movies and TV shows, but I still am always drawn to Titanic.

Being mcquote (and loving quotes) I have to share some of my favorite quotes from the movie.

Rose: "I love you, Jack."
Jack: "Don't you do that, don't say your goodbyes. Not yet, do you understand me?"
Rose: "I'm so cold."
Jack: "Listen Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and you're gonna make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me?"
Rose: "I can't feel my body."
Jack: "Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me... It brought me to you. And I'm thankful for that, Rose. I'm thankful. You must do me this honor. Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise."
Rose: "I promise."
Jack: "Never let go."

Jack: "Well, yes, ma'am, I do... I mean I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."

Rose: "A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets."

Rose: "Hello Jack. I changed my mind. They said you might be out here."
Jack "Shhh. Gimme your hand. Now close your eyes, go on. Now step up. Now hold on to the railing. Keep your eyes closed, don't peek."
Rose: "I'm not."
Jack: "Step up on the railing. Hold on, hold on. Keep your eyes closed. Do you trust me?"
Rose: "I trust you."
[Jack opens Rose's arms]
Jack: "All right. Open your eyes."
Rose: [gasp] "I'm flying, Jack!"
[Jack starts singing]
Jack: "Come, Josephine, in my flying machine, going up, she goes up, up she goes."
[they kiss]

Rose: "He saved me... in every way a person can be saved."

Jack: "Don't do it."
Rose: "Stay back! Don't come any closer!"
Jack: "Come on, just give me your hand. I'll pull you back over."
Rose: "No, stay where you are! I mean it! I'll let go!"
Jack: "No, you won't."
Rose: "What do you mean, "No, I won't"? Don't presume to tell me what I will and will not do, you don't know me!"
Jack: "Well, you woulda done it already."
Rose: "You're distracting me! Go away!"
Jack: "I can't. I'm involved now. You let go, and I'm, I'm 'onna have to jump in there after you."
Rose: "Don't be absurd. You'd be killed!"
Jack: "I'm a good swimmer."
Rose: "The fall alone would kill you."
Jack: "It would hurt. I'm not saying it wouldn't. Tell you the truth, I'm a lot more concerned about that water being so cold."
[pause. She looks down at the water. Jack is slowly removing his boots]
Rose: "How cold?"
Jack: "Freezing. Maybe a couple degrees over. You ever, uh, you ever been to Wisconsin?"
Rose: "What?"
Jack: "Well, they have some of the coldest winters around. I grew up there, near Chippewa Falls. I remember when I was a kid, me and my father, we went ice fishing out on Lake Wissota. Ice fishing is, you know, where you..."
Rose: "I know what ice fishing is!"
Jack: "Sorry. You just seem like, you know, kind of an indoor girl. Anyway, I, uh, I fell through some thin ice; and I'm telling you, water that cold, like right down there..."
[He gestures with his chin down toward the Atlantic Ocean]
Jack: "... it hits you like a thousand knives stabbing you all over your body. You can't breathe. You can't think. At least, not about anything but the pain. Which is why I'm not looking forward to jumping in there after you."
[They exchange glances]
Jack: "Like I said, I don't have a choice. I guess I'm kinda hoping you'll come back over the railing, an' get me off the hook here."
Rose: "You're crazy."
Jack: "That's what everybody says but, with all due respect, Miss, I'm not the one hanging off the back of a ship here. Come on. C'mon, give me your hand. You don't want to do this."
[She reaches her hand back, he reaches his forward, and he helps her back onto the deck]
Jack: "Whew! I'm Jack Dawson."
Rose: "Rose De Witt Bukater."
Jack: "I'm gonna have to get you to write that one down."

Cal Hockley: "Where are you going? To him? To be a whore to a gutter rat?"
Rose: "I'd rather be his whore than your wife."

Rose: "Fifteen-hundred people went into the sea, when Titanic sank from under us. There were twenty boats floating nearby... and only one came back. One. Six were saved from the water, myself included. Six... out of fifteen-hundred. Afterward, the seven-hundred people in the boats had nothing to do but wait... wait to die... wait to live... wait for an absolution... that would never come."

Rose: "It's so unfair."
Ruth: "Of course it's unfair. We're women. Our choices are never easy."

Rose: "I know what you must be thinking. "Poor little rich girl, what does she know about misery?"
Jack: "No, no, that's not what I was thinking. What I was thinking was, what could've happened to this girl to make her think she had no way out."

Jack: "Rose, you're no picnic, all right? You're a spoiled little brat, even, but under that, you're the most amazingly, astounding, wonderful girl, woman that I've ever known..."
Rose: "Jack, I..."
Jack:  "No, let me try and get this out. You're ama- I'm not an idiot, I know how the world works. I've got ten bucks in my pocket, I have no-nothing to offer you and I know that. I understand. But I'm too involved now. You jump, I jump remember? I can't turn away without knowing you'll be all right... That's all that I want."
Rose: "Well, I'm fine... I'll be fine... really."
Jack: "Really? I don't think so. They've got you trapped, Rose. And you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but... sooner or later that fire that I love about you, Rose... that fire's gonna burn out..."
Rose: "It's not up to you to save me, Jack."
Jack: "You're right... only you can do that."

Jack: "Where to, Miss?"
Rose: "To the stars."

Rose: "I don't know the steps!"
Jack: "Neither do I! Just go with it."

The two most pivotal and heart wrenchingly breathtaking scenes to me are when Rose makes the observation:
"I saw my whole life as if I'd already lived it. Always the same narrow people, the same mindless chatter. I felt like I was standing at a great precipice, with no one to pull me back, no one who cared... or even noticed. It was my whole life and everyone around me. And all the while I felt like I was standing in a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs, and no one even looked up."
I know what that feels like constantly. To feel so trapped and alone. To feel like no one cares. To feel so out of control you see no way out. Isn't Rose lucky to have Jack Dawson?! I think we all need someone to anchor us and remind us that we can control our lives. We must take chances. We have to choose our destiny. All of those around us... family, friends, strangers, etc want to control us. It can be suffocating. You can be screaming and crying out to deaf ears. To people who are so selfish. 
Every has agendas. You have to do what's right for you. If not, you'll be miserable and end up like Rose. Only, unfortunately, life is not like the movies. Jack isn't going to step out of the shadows and rescue you. It's heartbreaking but true. Only you can save you. Make decisions for yourself. Live by love. Money isn't everything. I love the fact that Rose chooses Jack who has nothing over Cal and all the riches in the world. That beautiful, stunning diamond blue heart necklace just weighs her down. It's meaningless.
When you die, you can't take your "treasures and money" with you. You take your love. You take your actions. You take who you are. That's what matters. The love you have inside you and the love you share. Always remember that. Always.

My goodness. It's SO tough to choose the best scene in this movie, but this is my f a v o r i t e. The love that is expressed in this scene. The selflessness. The hope. The "I'd give anything for you". It just makes me cry. This love is true. They both would risk their lives for love. They'd do ANYTHING for each other. That's the kind of love I want. That's the kind of love people deserve.
I apologize for the terrible quality of this video. It's the best one I could find! 
[Rose jumps from the saving boat and goes to where Jack is]
Jack: "Rose! You're so stupid. Why did you do that, huh? You're so stupid, Rose. Why did you do that? Why?"
Rose: "You jump, I jump, right?"
Jack: "Right."
Rose: "Oh God! I couldn't go. I couldn't go, Jack."
Jack: "It's all right. We'll think of something."
 Rose: "At least I'm with you."
At least I'm with you.
You jump, I jump.
Those statements speak for themselves.
Love means you'd rather die than hurt the other person.
Love means you'd do anything for them.
I love that Rose and Jack are like that.

TITANIC Shooting Star Deleted Scene :) Love it.
Rose: "Staring up at the sky, Look. It's so beautiful. SO vast and endless. They're so small. My crowd, they think they're giants. They're not even dust in Gods eyes."
Jack: "Well, there's been a mistake. You're not one of them. You got mailed to the wrong address."
Rose: "Laughs, I did, didn't I? LOOK, a shooting star!"
Jack: "It was a long one. You know, my Pop's used to tell me, every time he saw one, it was a soul going to heaven."
Rose: "I like that. Are we supposed to wish on it?"
Jack: "Why? What would you wish for?"
Rose: "Something I can't have."

TITANIC Deleted Scene (I don't know why they deleted it. I love it. They're just kissing. It's romantic.)

TITANIC is amazing.
It's my favorite.
You probably have watched it, but if you haven't, watch it again... and again.
If you haven't, seriously go watch it.
You won't regret it...

Live by Love, Lovelies,