dream it then real life it.
2016: The Caterpillar.
2017: The Cocoon.
2018: The Butterfly.
She changed this year.
She decided she didn't want to be this shy person anymore
because she always felt left out.
She decided to do one thing a day that scared her.
She decided to be more open-minded and
to stop judging everyone without knowing them and their reasons.
She decided to stop holding herself back and to stop pretending she's somebody she isn't just to impress people that won't matter in a few months.
These decisions made her happy.
She's carefree, bold, and living life at the fullest.
Always believe that something wonderful is about to happen.
This is the year I will be stronger, braver, kinder, & unstoppable.
This year I will be fierce.
Don't read the last page
But I stay.
I don't think there's a better feeling than realizing you no longer live in the same realm you used to. Growth is so beautiful.
Please no more temporary people in 2018.
Dear 2018 me,
You are still a blank slate, a collection of days not yet trodden, so let's make it right this time. Learn to cherish each moment. Take time to breathe and look at the things around you. Appreciate. Appreciate. Appreciate. [Even when you aren't appreciated]. Be grateful. You are more now than you were bleeding to death a year and a half ago. You are more now than you were five or ten years ago. Hell, you are more now than you ever were. So please please please choose happiness. Keep your footsteps steady, you may find one day that you seem to be moving slowly, and that's okay, as long as you keep moving forward. You may stumble and fall along the way (as you have before and as every single human being on this planet has), and that's alright too. You have so many bruises and scars already on your body and in your heart, and every time you still have to get up and look at those battle wounds as proof that you are a survivor. You have a purpose. Sometimes you wish you had stayed on the ground and given up... that's okay and that's normal. I want to tell you to not be ashamed of it. Take your time this coming year please. Appreciate life. Forward is forward. Take risks when it comes to love and your heart but guard it as if you life depends upon it: because it does. And you are a badass princess... even if you are a princeless princess. Because let me tell you a secret. A princess is still a princess without a prince. In fact, she is MORE of a princess. You are worthy. You are beautiful. You are imperfectly perfect. One step is still a step as long as you keep your eyes on your goals. Never ever give up on your goals. Ever. Choose happiness. Make happiness your priority and make spreading it to others a priority. And I know you still have that inner compass in you, that inner knowing (God and the Holy Ghost) that makes you know which path to take and will never lead you astray. Listen to it. Always. It never fails.
And when things get hard (which inevitably they always will) and too much to bear, always look and ask for help from Heavenly Father. Pray. Pray always. Seek Him even on the greatest moments of your life, or the mundane periods of your life. Seek Him in the moments of greatest despair when you're sobbing on the bathroom floor and feeling like you just want to die. Seek Him at all times. If there's anything I have learned this year and that I want you to remember, it is that we have a Heavenly Father who loves us, who is in control, who has a plan of happiness for us, and who is always there. Remember that. Pray. Whether you're happy or not, because He always listens, every time, 24/7 365.
And please, please, please know that I am here for you, your past selves, all of us, an accumulation and amalgam of years and experiences, a collection of moments and little joys and sadness, we're here and we're still here, making up who you are today, who you were in 2017, and who you will be in 2018... an even better version of yourself.
And above all, be brave. I know we can do this. Believe in yourself. I believe in you.
I wish you the best in life and love and everything else your heart desires.
<W/L3 (With Love),